Well, if you got our most recent email, or if you've talked to us lately, then you know our exciting news. We're going to have a baby!

Josiah and I got married over 3 years ago, and since then, it has been my desire to have children. I didn't voice this desire to many. Sometimes I felt unspiritual for not being content with all that I had, and sometimes I was simply afraid of others knowing my longing...especially since it seemed to be a long wait. Certainly I poured out my heart to God, but it seemed too personal a dream to express to other humans. I now feel ashamed of my tight-lipped syndrome because I missed out on being authentic and the freedom and that can bring. Perhaps I also missed out on sharing in someone else's pain. And I missed out on others sharing in mine.

God, I thank you for loving me when I am unlovable, and walking through my deepest pains with me.